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Becky ([email protected])
Date:10/8/2006 12:22:22 AM
Subject:Nightmares
I feel awkward, being the first person to post on this message board, but I wanted to know... does anyone else have nightmares of their experiences. I went to both Diamond Ranch and Discovery Academy, and my cousin went to Discovery Academy at the same time as I did, also. I have recurring nightmares of the program: being stuck there, the hopelessness I felt there, or being sent back, or a combination of the two. Also, on another note, I wanted to know if anyone feels... I gues the best word is disconnected, from their emotions? I have a hard time feeling joy now, or real feelings other than extreme anger and depression. I know it sounds melodramatic, but I just feel so disconnected. I've tried extensive therapy with someone I'm comfortable with, and who I went to of my own volition, and I've tried prescriptions for anti-depressants and the like... nothing seems to help. I'm in college now, and have a job, and am trying to have a normal life, but I am scared that this is going to be impossible to accomplish. I have no one from home, even friends and family, that I can truely talk about my experiences with, because no matter hgow hard I try to explain what happens, they don't understand the magnitude, the feelings associated with places like that. They don't understand the bitter hurt and the despondence, or even the paranoia that surrounds one's life while they are in a program. I didn't even know I had this much to write... I haven't let it all come out before. Please, just some feedback would be greatly appreciated.
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john m. giesler ([email protected])
Date:9/26/2006 9:06:45 AM
Subject:message board
hello and good morning to all. i am glad to see this message board up and running. thank you angela for giving us a safe place to talk, vent and express our feelings, without being unprovokingly attacked.
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